A letter to my son

Owen,

I cannot believe that you are 2 years old. It feels like just yesterday that you were rolling around in my belly like a crazy man. You absolutely loved to stick your foot under my right rib making it impossible for me to move around. It was such a fun reminder that you were always with me. On the day that you were born, I truly did not understand the concept of being a mother until I saw you. I can honestly say that I loved you from the moment I saw you.

When you were just a couple of hours old I was able to sooth you for the first time. I instinctively knew exactly what you needed from me and that was the most beautiful thing in the world.

The first 6 or so weeks were really difficult because I always worried about you. Jaundice and difficulty nursing took its tole on me emotionally. All throughout that time all I would have to do is look in your face and I would know that the sleepless nights and the uncertainty were absolutely worth it.

You were born in Little Rock Arkansas where Daddy was stationed for Pilot training. You spent your first 3 months of life there where you learned to smile, sleep through the night, and roll over. Then we made the 16 hour commute to our new home in North Carolina. I was so excited to finally get to give you an airplane nursery and a place to really feel at home.

We have spent the last couple of years truly getting to know each other. You have become such a sweet boy who loves giving hugs and kisses. There is nothing better than hearing the words “I love you Mommy”. You also make me laugh all of the time. You have the funniest expressions and love to do all that you can to make your family crack up at one of your eye expressions.

   

What has become even more beautiful is the fact that you have known exactly what I have needed from you! You have taught me how to truly love somebody unconditionally. I hope you always know that above anything else, I love you. I know the future will involve hard times, difficult decisions, and normal family disagreements; but I will always love you, no matter what.

You have brought me so much joy in the 2 years that you have been my son. You have showed me what family truly is and to disregard the difficult childhood that I had. You have taught me to be present in everything that I do instead of always looking to the future. Your smile brings me so much happiness while your laughter brings me so much joy.

 

My hope for you as you grow up is that you always remain such a sweet boy. Always be kind to other and always show that humorous side that I just can not get enough of. My prayer for you is that you always have a heart for the Lord. You love talking about Jesus and singing children's bible hymns before bed. One of my favorite things that we do together as a family is pray each night together. Then we enjoy singing an AMEN song complete with funny hand gestures.

I also desire for you to always know how loved you are. You are such a bright sunlight to all that you come into contact with.You have the ability to make everyone smile, laugh, and feel so much joy.         

Thank you so much for being my little boy. Thank you for changing me and for changing my heart. You have made me into a  better person and for that I will always be thankful.

Love you,

Mommy.